Life's daily struggles

As I look forward to a new year I see lot's of things I believe God wants to do with my life. I struggle with the order of how it should be done right now. I struggle with turning over my comfort zone of my eating disorder and stepping out into a life of complete surrender to Christ. I know God does not expect perfection and perhaps that is what I have to realize. I can't expect that from myself. To step in the right direction would be a great start towards beating this yet my feet at times feel like they are in concrete. I also know my emotions are still not strong eneough to get the strength from God right now. That is why C.R. is so impotant to me right now. To move into a leadership position will push me as it has before to do for God what I can't do for myself.
I am past the hated phrase of "YOU HAVE TO DO IT FOR YOURSELF AND NOT FOR SOMEONE ELSE." Been there done that. " DONE WITH THAT" Now , moving into an area of growth where The realization of doing it, " FOR GOD" as an expression of my love for him and desire to be the best servant for him is my new focus. I am powerless and the sooner I admit that the more strength I will recieve from Christ.

My name is Jim
Thanks for letting me puke.
Gby my brothers